Yesterday was my the last of my final exams of my first year of college. Originaly I planned on moving out of the dorms today but when I got back to my room yesterday afternoon I realized that if I stayed one more night I might get unhappy because I wouldn’t really get to hang out with anyone. I sent out a text message to all my of new Brothers & Sisters of Mu Phi Epsilon asking if anyone wanted to hang out and I never got a reply~ BUT it was then that I realized that everyone was leaving for home already. My roommate was down at the river tubbing and I realized that if I wanted to stay in the happiness that school is over I needed to moved out that night. Well, truthfully I really wish that someone would have made plans with me and gone down to the river with me or something- BOY was it hot!! I also have a theory, well my mom kind of came up with it, that our dorms turn down the intensity of the air conditioner  towards the end of the semester to probably made students want to leave- and it also saves money. Well I was done with that heat and now i’m laying down in my bed at home under a ceiling fan on high- really, I dont think I can live without fans- I need circulation!

SO, my overall impression of my first year of college?  It was a pleasant yet scary shock. I absolutely love my college campus, it’s so beautiful and green and I get so much exercise from the hills. I love the people that I met this semester- I feel like I finally did some things for myself by joining a professional music business fraternity~ Mu Phi Epsilon~ I cried during the induction ceremony. I love all my new brothes & sisters and I can’t wait to see what life brings to our eternal bond. When I first stepped inside the music building I retracted into my shell because I realized that I wasn’t the best singer in the world and I don’t know if I can teach others how to!! Music Theory classes also intimidate the hell out of me because I am SO slow! I really wish that my music teachers taught me more of this or that I took the effort to learn more of this stuff a lot sooner! I should have finshed piano &  I should have been a student conductor!  I realize that I have so many things I still need to learn and try out. I’m still scared i might be in the wrong major because I get so down on myself about my skills. The thing is that I really don’t know what else I will do if I didn’t do music- I really do love it, I just feel like i’m out of touch with it. I’m thinking this summer should give me that distance that makes the heart grow fonder.

Speaking of this Summer: I’ve applied for summer school at the community college and a job at a day care down the street from my house. I plan on getting two core subject classes out of the way and finally getting a full on real job and some money of my own. Up until this point I have felt pretty useless because my dad paid for my first year of college tuition completely out of pocket. I need to make my own money so I can atleast start paying for my own bills and eventually save something so I can have a life after college and not be in the poor house. I am not that scared of it anymore tho because of this whole economic recession thing~ honesty, the last time this happened to our ecconomy there was a great coming back after it and I think that by the time I graduate, I might be in the ideal economy where I can make some decent money even as a teacher. (And it has nothing to do with the president either).

I really hope that I get to relax this summer. I’m glad that I not gonna be doing nothing but im gonna miss the free time. I should be getting more of that free time after my Summer Courses end in early July. I can’t wait to make a trip to the coast andd just sit on the breeze beach and watch the waves. Today starts my first week of summer and I hope I don’t waist it not relaxing in everyway possible.