So something has been really bothering me! I was told by my voice teacher last week that when I originally auditioned to get into the school on music the whole staff thought I might have an intonation problem!! Can you believe that!!! Well I’ve been watching some old videos of me singing and I see how my pitch majorly suffers but it’s not because of my ear, it’s my breath support! anyways… im really aggravated with myself right now and just the whole situation. I think i’ve thought that I was so much better than I really was for years… The thing is I know that I have a huge voice and power behind all this technique issues and i’ve done it before!! I think the first time I’ve performed the way I really know how to sing was at my Opera Duet Scene for my final and everyone said OMG where did that come from. I knew that I was okay but it seems for the first time everyone actually heard how I thought I was sounding all this time! I mean it felt really good to sing like that but it was hard to keep it all together when I had to work with another singer too. I dont know, another thing is I know I can sing pretty damn well in a choir, I can support for the most part and I learn how to express the music and really have fun when I’m in a group. ugghh so frustrated! I just want my voice teacher to hear that I can do this and actually help me get through my issues because the way we’ve been working on this for the past two years hasn’t been the best! ugh! I just feel like I can’t sing..a big downer if you ask me.. almost makes me want to stop voice lessons and try to focus on choir or something more. I’d love to teach private voice lessons one day but bleh.. I just can’t perform well… why??
Knock on Wood
Well first off- *Knocks on Wood* I think I have found some Web designing inspiration through a project for school and i’m gonna see it through till I have edited every page on the current site. I’m thinking of actually making a layout again but I don’t have adobe or anything still! Well I have to start with the coding because i’ve been out of it for soooo long ~ Last night I forgot the code for the new Paragraph
and all I could remember was line break
! The site i’m working with was designed through Dream Weaver the code isn’t as recognizable to me but with some plug and chug I fixed an alignment issue that has been bugging me for MONTHS! I really need to get on this quick because I said i was supposed to work on this the entire five weeks of christmas and I just barely touched it because I couldn’t FIGURE OUT how to view the code on a MAC! I was looking for a something like notepad but all I found was TextEdit and it was showing me the rich text preview rather than the code itself- being so frustrated I totally forgot to check the preferences- WELL now I have that fixed so I can do this the old fashion way but I wish I could edit with a program that color coded the HTML so I can see if I closed all the code and all that jazz! I don’t want a machine that will completely give me all the HTML in one click btw! I like doing it myself but I had to give in to something like wordpress because it’s so time consuming to research all this stuff on your own. WELL there’s gotta be a starting point right?! I started off learning HTML with basic coding tutorials on a forum and then looked at the sources of other sites and learned how it all worked Anyways, i’m on my way to getting into the swing of being productive- Here’s to a new productive year and semester 
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